I was inspired just over a week ago to start taking my pills as regularly as possible. Recovery is not an easy process. I am trying hard to work my program. I am so thankful that GOD is my higher power and He has the ability to help me recover!!!
I have been getting ready to go on a personal mission trip in August. I am no where close to the amount of money I need to have raised for this trip. I know God will provide for me. He has so far and it is something I should not doubt.
I am trying to learn to cope in better ways than what I am used to. It sure is not easy to try and be rational during times when my mind feels like it is going crazy.
My birthday seems to be creeping up on me as well!!! I don't care about it at all this year. It is just another day as you get older, to remind you of how much older you are getting. At least the people I work with think I am younger than I am. I guess that means I am aging well.
I feel too ashamed a lot of times to ask for help. Even in my recovery. I don't want to bother anyone, so I just don't ask. I know it helps when I let it out, instead of waiting until I am ready to explode and blow up. I don't know if I will ever get used to being Bipolar or not, and think I will be learning to deal with it for the rest of my life. I just wish I could stay steady in one mood instead of bouncing in and out of them all the time.
Jesus will never leave you nor forsake you!!! I just need to remember that when I think of the problems I have, because God will always be here when I have problems.
I was also given these verses to read:
Proverbs 3: 5-8
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take. Don't be impressed with your own wisdom. Instead, fear the Lord and turn away from evil. Then you will have healing for your body and strength for your bones.
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