Whatever...

What's wrong with this picture?

There are so many things that I question now. I just don't understand how I got to this place. What made them ask me that night so long ago? What would have happened if I had said yes? But I didn't. I said no. And he listened to me. I wonder why he listened to me that night but not the other night? Why did he break my trust? Why did she break my friendship and my heart? I couldn't imagine the pain I felt from that heartbreak.
I have had my heart broken plenty of times since then. It is not something that you get used to though. Every time it happens again it is like it has never happened before. The pain is so intense and sharp inside. Will this pain pass as before with time? One hopes so. You will be given more than you can handle. If you weren't than you wouldn't rely on anyone other than yourself to get through this world.
Suicide is an option if you want it to be. Living is another option. What will you choose? Will you choose death or life? How long do you have to hold out for the pain to ease up or go away before you can't handle enough and decide to end it all?